.open your eyes.
4:56 p.m. || 2005-03-02
[mood: strange 
]
Open your eyes.
That soft crisp whisper of Penelope Cruz/Cameron Diaz is now stuck in my head. Take that, copy it a couple of hundred times and play it all in an empty room full volume over and over. That's how it is now in my brain, and I'm getting a bit of a headache. All in all, Vanilla Sky wasn't half as bad or arty as I made it out to be, although, I still have that strong disliking to its cast members. Save for Jason Lee, because I can't not love Jason Lee. Maybe it's the Chasing Amy, Jay and Silent Bob thing. I took a no-brainer liking to Kevin Smith movies a long time ago.
I wouldn't want to live forever. After all, what's life without its old brother death?
Jel and I are probably going to watch Million Dollar Baby tomorrow. I guess no one wants to watch Ray. Strange, I always thought I wasn't the only person keen on biopics.
This sudden urge to go out is driving me nuts. Despite the lack of finances in my bank account (to which I would have approximately $108.08), shopping therapy seems to call out to me quietly. I also want to pick up a new instrument, but my parents aren't giving the 'yay' or 'nay' about it. :/.
Mom also made me change my online options. I felt very mad at her for wanting me to change everything that I wanted to do, but I had to comply because I have a sick disease called 'obedience' that violently stirs whenever I want to compromise the situation. Darn. However, just to make myself feel not so bad about how pathetic I was, I am going to say proudly that I did not go down without a fight.
After a phonecall this morning, I've decided that I will have to get distinctions for every damn module I'm up against once school opens. Whatever I'm doing, I am going to sit my ass down and write up the best damn reports I've ever written. I need those A's to get into the local university. Thank goodness New South Wales University is going to open in 2007. I can't even afford to get a B. Not even minimal. Heck, I'm blowing my brain out here thinking about it.
But I guess all talk and no action does nothing for a person. Determination does make me a little more awake, though.
Tsk.
Hope Soong and I can qualify. We are going to kick everyone's asses.
Which Guilty Gear X character are you?
No. A person doesn't just wake up and stop loving somebody! ~Buffy, "I Only Have Eyes For You"
